Saying Goodbye...

Goodbyes are so hard for me. I went out for a goodbye dessert with my fabulous friends from the ward (by the way, I missed a few important people when I was asked for my list and I am SO sorry!!! I have seriously lost my mind this week.) and it was SO fun, but I am sure I got akward and wierd at the end because I am no good saying goodbye. :) I have LOVED our time here and I will miss everyone so much. I am hopeful that our new neighborhood and ward family will be awesome, too, but one is never the same as another.



They come pack our stuff tomorrow which means I will most likely not be blogging about the bachelor this week. Okay, let's get serious, I will probably FIND a way. :) Now for the scary part- I have NO IDEA where we will be during the finale, I am a little nervous about that. Will we be in a hotel? At our house? Will we have cable yet? I may have to find a new best friend really quickly who will let me come crash their bachelor finale party.

As a side note, I still haven't blogged about WPPI and I will (it was awesome) I am just waiting on some pictures.

I am weak.

I am a weak, weak person. See that innocent looking morsel in the bottom left hand corner? The one with the coconut and drizzles of chocolate? That, my friend, is a Somoa, and if you have never had one, you haven't truely lived. Throw in some Thin Mints for good measure and you are set for life.

"Wow, Mom...She's REALLY Crying!"

Words from my 2 year old this morning as I was the worst mommy on the planet and forced my kids to entertain themselves so I could watch the latest episode. I was in Vegas at WPPI this weekend and didn't get home until 4, yes FOUR in the morning so I had to watch it first thing when I woke up. It's really sad that I can't check my email, facebook, blog, phone messages, texts, or IM's until I have watched it. (Thanks to Ashley who read my texts for me so it wouldn't get spoiled).

Anyway, since I had two babies hanging off me as I watched, I wasn't able to devote my full critiquing attention, but I think I got the important stuff. So, the question is:

WHAT is he THINKING????

I was shocked, stunned, and...angry. Just ANGRY! Although I am team Melissa (especially now!) I really think Jillian is his soulmate. They are both goofy, she is totally mature, awesome, loving, funny, and she thinks HE is all that. But I guess the heart wants what it wants.

What's done is done. It's down to Molly and Melissa and I hope Melissa comes out on top.

Down with Deanna. Who, by the way, is now the host of a WEDDING show on Lifetime. Does that kind of reek with irony to anyone else?

Now, onto speculation from the previews. Okay, so. I have a guess about the whole 'private taping' thing. I think I have it figured out. So, if you don't want a total speculation POSSIBLE spoiler, don't read on. If you read on from this point, don't blame me.

I think he chooses Melissa, and they bring her parents on, OR maybe he says to Melissa that he wants to marry her, but needs to ask her dad for permission, so he gets that permission on that 'final rose' show? I don't know, maybe I am way off, but it seems like the only one with issues of 'publicness' is her family, so that would make sense to me....

Lucky Jason

Precious Jason. I had a look very similar to this one pretty much the whole time I watched tonight:

While watching this episode unfold, I pondered to myself...if I was ever on a show like this, where my family had to be filmed...would that bring out the 'crazy' in them? Is being on a reality show license to be as absolutely loony as possible?

Apparently, yes. It is.

I am sorry, ever so SORRY to my black horse, who was born into the nuttiest family alive. Naomi seems so normal, how is it possible? I wanted to fast-forward through her whole hometown date, but Mike made me suffer through it. I think she was hoping to smooth it all over with that pop on the butt she gave him at the end, but unfortunately the damage was done. Not that I was surprised, though, I already felt she would be leaving tonight. I just wish I wouldn't have had to witness the whole dove funeral before she got sent home. At least we can rest assured knowing that the dove will come back as their family cat.

Molly's family was quite a bit little less loony, but still kind of out there, especially when they knew that their hat shenanigans would be broad casted on national television. I do have to give it to Molly, though. If looks could kill, her mom would have dropped dead when she brought those hats out. Wow.

Jillian was kind enough to air all of her mother's dirty laundry out for all the world to hear, which I am sure her mother was loving when she watched tonight. I do think it was important for Jason to know of the difficulty they had been through as a family, but it was a little TMI. I actually LOVED Jillian's family, though. As we watched, Mike and I agreed that Jason seemed like he would fit right into that family. They seemed so fun and goofy. Goofy, not crazy. I liked it.

I felt so sad for Melissa that her parents weren't there for her at all. I think her friends meant well, but they didn't really help her situation much. I was surprised to hear them talk so much about the awful choices she had made in the past when it came to dating. It made her seem very immature. I still love her though, and I want her to win.

When Naomi left tonight, I was not surprised at all. I basically knew that she would be the one sent home tonight. But now, the final 3 girls that are left are all so neck and neck with one another. And I think Jason would be happy with them all. I absolutely cannot wait for next week!!!

Oh, and Deanna. First of all, get some style, Deanna. She shows up to try to steal him back looking totally frumpy. I don't know why that annoys me so much, but it does. I am interested to see how he shoots her down. He is so nice, I am sure he will do it with a lot of sensitivity.

Can't WAIT til next week!!!

Oh Man.

I have to say that I am a little embarrassed that my last post was from last week's Bachelor and there is nothing in between. I promise I do have a life outside of ABC. I have been gone all weekend in St. George with my sis and sis-in-law and our clan of kids...more about that another time. Right now I need to discuss good old 'J'.


Could you hear my heart breaking tonight? Even though I know it was for the best, I just could not stand it when he sent Stephanie packing. I don't think I have EVER cried at this point in the game but...yeah. I will admit it, I was bawling. I think Jason's parting words to her really depicted how I felt about their relationship, as an outsider looking in. She is an incredible person but there was no spark between them. Perhaps she will be the next Bachelorette? I would LOVE it for her. I wonder if it would be incredibly boring to watch, though?

I really felt sorry for Jason tonight because it seems like all the girls he has left are pretty cool. Except Molly, of course, but I doubt she will be hitting the road anytime soon. I think he has it pretty bad for her. What is it about her that rubs me the wrong way?? I guess she is just too 'on' all the time. Like she is so excited and bubbly, sometimes it's like she is just going to, I don't know, bite him out of excitement. Like a puppy. I was disappointed to hear that he likes her kisses the best. That's pretty significant, I would think.

Melissa is a doll. I want her to win at this point. I would be happy with Jillian, too, though. But back to Melissa, I was excited for her to have that casual one on one time with him at his home, and to be able to bond with him like that. I am SO nervous for her for next week and her hometown date. I feel so bad for her that her parents won't see him. I guess I will have more to say about it next week when it actually happens.

Jillian is cool, and I think it's obvious that Jason really likes her, too, especially since he took her out to clarify her feelings for him. I can't wait for him to go home with her, and spend more one on one time with her and see her being 'real'. Hopefully there will be no more talk of condiments from here on out.

Naomi is.....okay, well, I feel obligated to love her since she is my dark horse, but honestly, I kind of don't know what I think about her. I have to say that I think Stephanie pretty much nailed it on the head when she said that she is a doll but immature. Oh, and her family looks absolutely NUTS. What in the world is up with burying the dead dove? She looks like she is going to die of shame.

Alright. So, I still have the first episode recorded and I watched the 'This Season on The Bachelor' part again, and I am mad at how they totally edited it to seem like Deanna came back when all the girls were there (I now reckognize all the comments and when they were REALLY said and why...none having to do with Deanna). I think she comes back on the final episode, maybe right before he proposes because she says, "It isn't over...you haven't proposed-yet." UGH. I hope it's very short and he immediately kicks her out. She looks awful in the preview, by the way.
Also, in that preview there were a few scenes that haven't been shown yet- one on ones with certain girls, two girls for sure. So, if you still have it recorded and you want a little spoiler for yourself...you should watch. ;)

Snap.

"You're great."

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"No, YOU'RE great!"

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a pat on the back

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Bye bye, Megan.

I am SO glad she is gone. SO Glad.

Sooooo.....lots of drama tonight! I have to say I was extremely pleased with all of Jason's cuts. From this point on, I really don't know that he could go wrong. Let's see.....

First he cut Nikki, who I almost thought was going to get the rose over Stephanie because of her last minute admissions to him, but luckily he stayed the right course and gave it to Stephanie. They kissed again, which made me a little weirded out but at least this time it seemed more like a kiss between lovers, and not a mother and child. Stephanie is always so level headed and doesn't seem to get emotional like the other girls, and she seems like such a....passionate person. I would love to see a more fun side of her. She is always so gracious, though, and I love it! I want to wrap up a present full of the best things in life and give it to her.

Megan's kiss with Jason looked to me like she was biting his face off. I am just so glad she's gone now. He made SUCH a good choice not giving out that final rose, because I really do think he would have given it to her.

Lauren went from being cute to being a total brat, and I guess she thought that was a good strategy??? Anyway. I am not to sad to see her go.

Shannon was a total freak throughout this whole episode. I could not believe her pleading to Jason. It reminded me of Grey's Anatomy: "Pick me, Choose me, Love ME." Anyway, I guess the ray of light in this story is, at least she has a puppy to go home and make out with...

So. Jillian, Melissa, Stephanie, Naomi, and Molly-the-hoe remain. Jillian played it cool and I am glad she is still around. Melissa lost her cool but I have to say my pendulum is swinging her way. I like her. I didn't think I would, but I really do! I just hope she doesn't screw it up next week. Naomi needs a better connection with Jason. Making out on a fake movie set in front of everyone else does not a connection make. Molly, uh, secured her rose pretty well. I don't love her BUT I am not to the point where I would be mad if he chooses her. And I have to admit that I remember that the person he DOES choose has dark hair, so maybe I just subconsciously know he won't choose her. ;)

Where is Deanna? It's down to 5 women, so after next week he goes to 4, which means hometown dates, right??? So when does she make her appearance? I want her to come and GO.

Things I Admit about Myself.

My sister told me I had better put my list up (hers is hilarious) so here it is: Things I can admit about myself are...

1. I cry over everything- every movie, commercial, tv show, letter, phone call, story, book...anything that has any kind of emotional undertone has me bawling. On the floor, scrape-me-off-with-a-putty-knife kind of bawling. Has anyone seen 7 pounds? This is NOT a spoiler, but there is a part where a blind man is trying to flirt with a waitress and she is kind of politely blowing him off. Will Smith asks the blind man if he is going to ask the waitress out, and the blind man very kindly says, "Oh, no...you see, I don't think SHE sees ME." Um, I nearly had to be carried out of the theater, I was crying so hard. And believe me, that was a very minor moment in the movie!!! And don't even TELL me a story about a mother dying and leaving her girls behind. I will never recover. My sister pretty much knows that any story she tells me will have me sobbing in seconds. But I can't control it!

2. I HATE contention. Oh my gosh, if there is a confrontation I am immediately searching for a place to hide. I do NOT like tension, whether I am involved or not. Which means I am usually the peacemaker, which means I usually get walked on.

3. On the flip-side, I cannot stand it when someone causes contention, stirs the pot, or produces drama. Try as I may, I do not understand it. I think whether you agree with someone or not, and there is always a kind way to handle things.

4. I love chocolate milk, but only if I make it at home with a mix. I don't like the pre-made kind.

5. I love Matlock. I could watch Matlock reruns all day long. I think because there is a mystery (which I love) but it's not scary or too disturbing. (which I hate)

6. I am deathly afraid of horror movies, scary stories, and anything remotely disturbing. I get scared just remembering stories I have heard throughout my childhood.

7. Since my computer is in my living room I can immediately see if someone emails me or IM's me...but I feel stupid responding right away because I think people will think that I do nothing but sit in front of the computer all day long.

8. I miss my family and friends in Utah, but even more than that I miss Rachel's cousins and the relationship I know she could have with them if we lived there.

9. One of the best lessons I have ever been taught was by my sister in law, Katie, who showed me how important it is to always make an effort to see where people are coming from. Growing up, I was always so quick to judge and jump to conclusions about people (I don't know why- it probably stemmed from my own insecurities) and I never gave anyone the benefit of the doubt. Now, trying to understand why people act the way they do, and, as I said before, trying to see where they are coming from has helped me have such richer relationships. I am not saying that I never judge or never think ill of anyone (I am FAR from perfect), but I do really try to do this and it helps so much. Selfishly, it also makes me a happier person.

10. I hate cheesecake. Unless it is really doctored up to taste like something OTHER than cheesecake- then it's tolerable.

11. I cannot just sit and watch TV or a movie (unless I am trapped in a movie theater). I am always up doing something else at the same time. And then I seem to find myself saying, "What did she say?" "What just happened" "Where did that guy come from?" a lot. Poor Mike.

12. I adore my kids and think they are the coolest kids ever (sorry, people. They are.) And I feel the same way about Mike, like I REALLY lucked out marrying him. This is not a mushy, 'I heart my husband' thing, I just feel really, really lucky that we are married to eachother and have so much happiness and love in our lives, because I know not everyone has that.

13. I am so sick of my furniture. Some if it I have even had since I was 18, and I am SO excited to be getting new stuff, soon I hope!

14. I worry a lot. I got ulcers when my sister went away to college because I was so worried. I was on ulcer meds at 10 years old. True story.

15. I hate spicy foods but I LOVE buffalo wings. Wierd.

Okay so there are some things about me. A real share. I don't normally do this, so please share with me, too. I love getting to know people more (but I hate writing such things about myself.) So, if I can do it, you can do it. Don't make me call you out.